well let's see. whats new with me. nothing much really. college now. i really have no motivation for anything really..i dont know what i want to study or where i want to go in life, i feel like im just literally floating through life. i used to feel like i loved photography so much, but i havent played around with my camera in so long..i feel like i lost the passion for that. like there is no spark for me in anything right now. and i dont know why.
It's not like things are going bad, its just idk. i feel lost. people say im depressed or whatever and maybe i am..idk. i just feel not like myself. even when i hang out with my friends, my body is there but my mind isnt. when theyre talking i feel like i could care less. i dont feel like the energetic happy person i used to be..and i dont know why at all.
as for the whole boy and relationship thing..thats going no where..i started going to the gym yesterday and i'm just trying to keep that up..maybe if i look better and gain more confidence then things would change.
and ive been trying to find a job..hopefully i get one soon.
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